Hope has never been a thing that comes easily to me. Neither has the belief that
God is good. Actually, that is only part true. I have believed in His goodness for
others, but not His goodness that is aimed toward my life. So much so, that when
Clint and I were engaged I lived in fear that God would make me give up getting
married and spend the rest of my life alone. Now, I can look back and clearly see
the enemy’s voice all over those thoughts. They were so religious and ridiculous
that it’s laughable. At the time though, I mostly believed that God was in the business
of having us die to our dreams. I viewed Him as a scary sovereign, passing out judgments,
not a good and loving Father that wants to have a relationship with me. Because
of this way of thinking, I allowed myself to be robbed of the joy and hope that
should be a part of planning a wedding and a future together. Instead it was filled
with stress and fear.
I mostly believed that God was in the business of having us die to our dreams.
There are plenty of other circumstances that have been like that. I have lived most
of my life, “waiting for the other shoe to drop”. I now know, that living like that,
in a constant state of worry, fear and hopeless disappointment was directly connected
to childhood trauma. The reality is that a lot people do what I did. We adjust our
theology to fit the circumstances of our lives. Sometimes our thought processes
are totally justified by our life experiences. That, however, doesn’t mean that
those ways of thinking are right, healthy or how God intended us to be.
We adjust our theology to fit the circumstances of our lives.
So, what do you do, when you realize that you’ve believed lies about God most of
your life? How do you go about making a correction? I have personally begun to demand
of myself HOPE. I command my soul to hope in God. When fear of loss tries to sneak
in I speak out loud to my heart. I firmly remind myself that, “No good thing has
been withheld from me”. I deliberately review the past years of my life looking
for examples of God’s goodness and faithfulness being manifest. I remind myself
that my outward circumstances are not my dictator. They are actually subject to
my inner world. My beliefs and thoughts, my heart toward God is the actual standard.
I remind myself that I am worth it to Jesus. I am a creation in the image of my
Father, and He called that creation good. I say a resounding NO to hopelessness
and fear, while saying YES to joy, peace, hope and love. It takes time to undo a
lifetime of wrong believing. It takes some effort on my part, and a conscious decision
to plant truth in the soil of my heart and mind.
I say a resounding NO to hopelessness and fear, while saying YES to joy, peace,
hope and love.
Be bold in your pursuit of Hope. Snatch up the weeds of fear and doubt that the
enemy of your destiny wants to plant. Replace them with the truth of God’s word,
the truth of His character, the truth of His goodness and love that is firmly aimed
toward your life.
Psalm 145:8-9 The Lord is gracious and compassionate, slow to anger and rich in
love. The Lord is good to all; he has compassion on all he has made.
Nahum 1:7 The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble.
James 1:17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father
of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.